It has occurred to me that my consciousness is so used to having my mind be in charge, that when I am actually still and present, it feels strange. There seems to be discomfort with a void being present. The truth is, at least in my experience, that being still and empty takes a bit of getting used to. There also seems to be a gradational aspect, or varying degrees, to stillness. Not that I wish to measure this, however, an accurate example might be analogous to the alpha, beta and gamma levels or depths. In any case, I am realizing more and more that open and empty space is natural and essential to allow the true expression of the Spirit of origination and of my unique spirit. When I AM present, there is an experience that could be described as a seamless flow from my center of Being. This experience, I would say, is not yet constant for me; however, it is on the increase, as I do find myself hearing a call from within whenever I find myself drifting away from the sensory orifice of, and in, the NOW.
There are questions that come to me, in this moment: “Can I listen and see without questioning that which is present? ” There is a great difference between being ‘in discovery’ and that of ‘questioning.’ “Can I allow, and work with, all things as they are, without trying to change them or make them different?” If I don’t ‘need’ things to be different, I don’t ‘try’ to change them. Testing, comparing and studying things in great detail have not, and does not, serve the creative process. This point may be argued by scientists and others who have convinced themselves that they are truly serving mankind through their painstaking efforts. However, as our society departed and continues to depart the simplest way of living and approaching life, it departed from that which was natural. I see where human nature thinks that it is. It’s almost like a rat who journeyed quite far into a maze which was projected from a reaction to an illusion and now it’s trying to figure how to get out of the maze. However, illusions have no real escape, but they do disapear as reality is acknowledged. Life does in fact allow the walls of the maze to come down or to disappear, as there’s understanding that it’s actually an illusion.
Another analogy would be in trying to purify the dirty water in a glass. The water is your life and you can’t put your life through a strainer or filter very effectively. All that you really have to work with is adding more water to the glass. As one keeps pouring clean water into the glass of dirty water, water starts overflowing. The water that overflows is a combination of dirty and clean water. Eventually, after enough clean water is added, the ‘dirt’ in the water is brought down to an undetectable and insignificant level. Eventually, you might be able to say that no dirty water exists in your glass. The key, however, is not in that omission. The key is to just be focused on letting clean water be poured forth continually. Don’t try to measure your progress. Just keep pouring! I AM grateful to know that whatever I choose to pour forth is that which always creates my experience in this precious Life!





