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At different times of my life, I would have probably answered this question differently.  But “now” as I live my life, having experienced so many changes; I am looking things in a much more simplistic fashion.
 
I used to think that it was important to have a mate whom I could share all of life’s adventures with.  But of my choices of mates, and/or ways that I related to them, something has proved amiss!  Now, at age of 48, I find myself alone.  My experiences of this “being alone” are a bit challenging emotionally, but it has also allowed me to cleanse myself at very deep levels.  I am slowly arising from a heart aching stupor to a place of new and naked peace within myself.

Part of me feels that, perhaps, such heart wrenching journeys are of the most valuable; especially when it comes to the real growth that calls to the truth of me.

The greatest lesson might be in realizing that no one is ever to be blamed for anything.  Blame is an illusion and accomplishes nothing.

While recognizing the route of dysfunction in any scenario may hold intrinsic value, there is nothing ever to do but to understand and learn from it.  The greatest gift seems to be the quickest route to the truth of anything.

When it really comes down to brass tacks, the only truth that we can know is found in the simplicity of the present moment.  Truth is almost too much of an obscurity, from the standpoint of linear perception, to try to define beyond just Being!  Truth is a discovery born from “letting” and requires no definition – just conscious presence of Being…

Did you ever notice that you had to get to that place in yourself (in consciousness) where all the old tapes stopped playing?  Or, perhaps, they continue to play, but you don’t choose to tune in to them any longer!
 

I find myself not being interested in the same old anything.  Even survival, itself, is taking on a new meaning.  It’s as if my capacities can no longer stay the road of participating with things that are passing away.
 

To be afforded awareness and vision can be very challenging; while still working with the earthly conditions undergoing such extreme transformation.
 

The question keeps coming up in my consciousness – “Where do I belong?”  Where can I serve my truest vision best?  Who, if anyone, should be in my company or at my side?  These are the questions that hold my inner consciousness captive.
 

A dear and very wise friend of mine might say to me that anything out of the present moment is cloaked and clouded with illusion.  The human experience, in this regard, can seem as a paradox.  We have relationships and a variety of circumstances.  At times, perhaps most of the time, there seems to be parts of the whole equation that counter logic and creativity.  It is a very sobering experience to see the truth; while observing so much that doesn’t support anything other than chaos and bedlam.
 

Logic would dictate that there is a larger clearing and transformation at hand, and that the changes that need to come are coming; some swiftly and some more slowly.  It can all appear like things are out of sorts, but there is something behind it all that is honing the world to be that which it was meant to be, once again!
 

With so much appearing to be out of sorts in the world around, it is imperative for me to continually seek the place of peace within myself.  From my place of peace and tranquility, I do find a home (the truest home that I know).  In this place, I also find the company of Spirit.  In this space, I am never actually alone.  Some say that all such inferences and possibilities are but an illusion.  But for me, if it is an illusion, it is a very creatively consistent illusion.  From my journey and for my journey’s sake, I can only say that, creative consistency is invaluable.  And so, without knowing any better, I pay homage to Spirit.  The Holy Spirit serves me well!  I honor Spirit’s place of Being!

Arriving to a place within myself where I only call to hear the voice of the One from my still and silent Being!  As echos of timeless determination without form; springs forth creating life in its majestic motion.
 

The Earthly thoughts I let ease through healing chambers of my still Being.  Lessons of virtue harkens at my child of innocence and grace within.  To let life live completely and unobstructed.  To let even that what is closest in to my Earthly heart leave me to grow and transform.  This calls to a true test of my Identity.
 

Within me calls aloud, while joy and sadness mirror as one; “Unconquerable life prevails!”  It is now that I know all that I Am.  Now with, and without, connected by Spirit and knowing the experiences of empathy and caring; peaceful in my solace, I Am.  Quiet and alone and yet all-One…

Mankind has trapped himself in the abyss of measurement and comparison.  We create idols, as we raise an illusionary bar higher; naming things better or worse.  It is all but an illusion.
 

The comfort conditions are only what we name them to be.  Our lives have become a declaration of our own illusions.
 

A divorce of all things imaginary is what is required to communion with one’s true self of perfect Being!  This divorce is a process of detachment from forms and imaginary relationships.  I find that I am, at times, even (grieving) at the loss.  A good analogy might be as one gets clean from the affects of a lethal drug.  This process does not necessarily happen over night.  Addiction to delusional thought processes is a real thing!  The world may be replete with this condition.
 

Learning to be at one with the silence of my own capacities is only the beginning.  Learning that I actually am “the silence” is still yet to be known…!

Until recently, and with the help of a very learned friend, I did not realize how much of my life I spent chasing illusions.  Stepping away from the present moment into a fantastic hypothesis of the past or an illusionary forecast of the future seems to be mankind’s addicted course of thinking.  I see it in myself.  I see in how I still think about my life and its relationships.  And the perplexing thing is that it all has to do with me and not the circumstances of my life.
 

While there is basic intelligence that can be derived from certain patterns exhibited by people, one can be over influenced and in reaction mode from such experiences. 
 

The best that I can do, under all circumstances, is just be present to allow life (of which I am apart) to create whatever the moment sees fit!  The ability to let things be whatever they need to be is paramount in the human experience.
 

It is particularly interesting for me to have the added experience of communication with the invisible realms or spirit world.  I think that, in some ways there has been the tendency to take that which naturally comes from the invisible realms and try to turn it into a belief system – because of the fact that a linear human approach to understand the invisible relationship (again) seems to have most stepping away from the present moment.  And the funny thing is that I don’t get signals from the invisible place (within myself) or perhaps I just can’t hear them unless I am present in the moment.  It is very clear to me, what is required for me to hear the silent (and yet very strong) message from Spirit).  So the key to everything seems to boil don’t to being able to stay in the present moment.  Could anything be more simple and yet more intrinsically challenging in the human experience?

As the tide begins to turn in life, the wealthy are becoming more and more baron.  The true strength becomes as a pillar of Love & Truth that is present from the ones whom honor the simple life.  The fortresses of the wealthy are falling apart from within – as the concrete of its hidden chambers begins to crumble.  The black hole sucks everything away from the world until there is nothing left to take – and it devours itself!  This is the future of greed and lust!
 

Only the ones who creatively live in the moment causing no harm or even ill thoughts for another will survive the immensity of this transmutation and transformation.  It will be by the laws of nature; i.e., “cause and effect” that man will reawaken!
 

Only the innocence from each one; as he and she repents unto their own personal realities will each be cast free from the illusion.
 

Stand still, and without thoughts, and you will know all that is ever to be known.  Be true in the highest place of your Being!  Know now of all that can be known through your simplest appreciation of knowing the One.  I Am that I Am!

I still try to convince myself (at times) that I am surprised by the outcome of relationships or events.  Now one has sold me more Brooklyn Bridges that I have.
 

It is said that insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.  One could take the essence of that statement and also say that expectation is born exclusively from delusion.  I’m not here to stop, analyze and build expectation – I’m here to create!  I don’t have all of the factors about anything.  I don’t believe that I know anyone that does.
 

So the test remains a very simple one.  The test is my ability to remain creative and not subject to anything – just fully conscious and creative!
 

I can feel love toward someone and yet not have designs on creating the forms that the love needs to take.  Creatively is naturally, and that usually comes with a tremendous sense of ease!
 

Some people seem to think that arguing and conjecture is natural.  It can seem natural to them – but it’s not natural.  Harmony is natural.
 

The present moment is all that I have to know or realize anything!

It is said, that nothing will ever happen to you that you cannot handle.  Of course, the human mind can really get in there and try to prove that statement wrong.  But human thinking is usually very limited as to its application.
 

There are those that are less conscious than I (so it seems), but that could just be my illusion.  I know that I been in touch (more than a few times) with a power or force that connects me to all things.  In my experience, this “power” or “force” seems to also have a vast intelligence.  The names that one may choose to give to that force maybe irrelevant (for the most part).  But, I’m still wondering about that – from the standpoint of relevance.  Words, semantics and language change so rapidly, and so does our interpretation and understanding of them.  And yet, with all of this taken into consideration, there is still (a sometimes) silent Spirit that fills me, and seems to assist and direct the living process.
 

The more this experience happens in my life, the more that I realize that so much of it is beyond me.  I may be connected to everything, but there is so much more that is occurring that I am here to just experience and work with; in the best way that I can – moment by moment!
 

It is both comforting, and sometimes a little scary, to let go of the reigns.  And yet, what other ultimate choice does one have?

In my experience, the more that I leave the present moment, the more apt I am to create an illusion while forming expectation around it.  For me, this is a major breakthrough of realization.  But even in that, it’s just the beginning.  To be aware of something so important is only the beginning of where one needs to go with it.
                    
Personally speaking, I am so used to analyzing things that I have actually convinced myself, at times, that my thoughts were accurate.  And, so often, I’ve found that I perceived things through fear and disillusionment versus seeing things as they actually are!
 

There is so much recreation of old and distorted patterns; while living outside the present moment.
 

I believe that it may well take me years of focusing out of “living outside” the present moment until I am able to turn off the old tapes.  This could be the most valuable part of my journey to Being Conscious!  I am grateful to have more than a chance of Being truly awake!

No matter what religion that you believe in, one must recognize the perfection of the Christ Spirit.  I Am one that knows for himself that the Spirit of Christ lives well in my heart.  I Am also one that knows that Spirit speaks to me through my thoughts and feelings.  It is a subjective experience.
 

I don’t think that we have let the Christ Spirit be very large in our personal experiences.  Division and judgment do not characterize Christ’s loving Spirit.  The Christ Spirit is larger than we give credit to.  Some think that one needs to be what they call a “Christian” to let Christ be one with them or to be one with Christ.  It really can get complicated while consciousness is affected by semantics, language, names, doctrines, etc.  Because of these things, as humans, we seem to loose sight of the Spirit and loving essence of Christ.
 

I have met people from India, Japan, China, etc., hosting a diversified array of religions, who shine Christ’s beauty through them; as few others do!  We get so lost in the pathetic little linear interpretation of things that we forget the actual meaningful aspects of life and conscious messages from Spirit/God.  One cannot find anything with a consciousness that constantly compares and measures things and people.
 

The greatest that one can be in this life is completely conscious.  Being conscious dictates that one doesn’t need to react to anything.  In any moment, each one of us creatively effects or they are subject to being affected!  We cannot be in the present, and in the past or the future.  There actually is no past or future; as they are illusions.  Reality requires the present moment.  There are no other bases for reality.
 

So greet the world with the greatest loving gift; which is one of reality.  In the present moment, you and I may know Christ through Being Conscious!